Despite of all the commotions in the school, first blood tomorrow and the undisputed traffic and rain, I managed to arrive home just in time. Good thing the rain stopped. On my way home, I saw Maan and we almost went home together but we had to part coz of the traffic that was blocking every possible path. K But I was lucky enough. haha J then I went straight to my room and got rid of my uniform. When I was about to eat lunch, i turned the tv on and found that Maid in Manhattan is showing on HBO. My mom and I wanted to catch that yey. It made me cry once again L but nevertheless, it was worth it all. Ty is exceptionally adorable

“Our work doesn’t describe our identity. What matters is how you rise after falling.”

The unexpected acquaintance

Of course I went online. And guess what? Haha. Secret. It was fun! She’s so nice and all. Too bad I had to leave coz I have my exams tomorrow. If ever you’re reading this, thanks again for ur time! J

Imesh update: I downloaded yellow card, incubus, and a perfect circle tracks today J it was so fun. I’m a music freak. Just so you know.

The college catastrophe

everyday, the thought of having the exams and the seniors filling up application forms draws us closer to the thought of entering college in a matter of 2 years. I know it sounds a bit exaggerated but we wanted to be sure where to get the best tertiary education. Schools like UP, Ateneo, La Salle and UST came to the picture. The big dilemma is will we be able to reach their standards? I’ll admit that I’m so scared of entering college. What ifs and buts are starting to crawl in my mind. My last choice would be leaving for the states which I wouldn’t want to happen. I really love the college spirit here. And given the chance to pass the entrance exams, these would be my initial reactions:

UP- Royal feeling: never in a million years I’ve imagined myself as an Iskan. There’s nothing wrong with being one. in fact it would be a great honor to pass the dreaded UPCAT. Dilemma: papasa ba ako?

ATENEO- Royal feeling: My dream university. If God will allow such miracle, I’d be thankful all my life. I’d love to take up MassComm PolSci there. Dilemma: will I pass? And the location is a bit far. Oh I have to stay in BF! yey

LA SALLE- Royal feeling: despite of being blue hearted, I’d be happy to take up college there. Dilemma: the course I’d be taking up and would I cheer for them. Haha J

UST- Royal feeling: Is the most advisable school. I can take up nursing or med there. Dilemma: I think id would take me 5 years to finish nursing and the location is far and flooded.

So there. Come what may, I’d still be praying for the best. Before that, I have to remember my exams tomorrow. Geom. And English.

Its been raining overnight and yet I haven’t heard if classes were suspended our phone is flooding with calls asking kung may pasok ba. Hmpft. Nevertheless, walang pasok ngayon yeeeeeeeey. Hahahhaha. Now, I hafta allow my hair to dry since nakaligo na ko… our phone is still ringing ang rining. Parang call center tuloy nyahaha. I wonder if some schools have their classes… hmmmmmm… *wishful thinking* nyarks haha. that’s it for now. I know I’ll be listening to yael the whole day. No I mean it. I’ll be with him.

ALL DAY.




Echoes of music: Saturn- Spongecola




Sleep all day.



Basically that’s what I did the entire day. What an awesome feeling when you can just leave everything behind and runaway from the hustle and bustle of your life. How I wish everything can be simple just as this day. The feeling it bought me just make go siiiigh. Of course, if not sleeping, I’m listening to my downloaded songs. I know it’s considered as stealing and it can cause piracy. I swear that I’ll buy an original spongecola no matter what it takes. I sweeeeear. *pog*

My drama for this moment:
Literally, I’ve been finding infos about him. *ok you already know him. If not, look around my layout. I’m sure you’ll figure it out and give a loud “aaaaaaah.”* That’s how frustrated I’ve been for the past week. I don’t keep pics of him. Why? It’s just because I wanna retain my sanity. What?  Sanity. Ok fine. I’m lying. I do keep but I don’t stare. And I’ve found only about the basics. Of course I wanna know more. Like what course is he taking up or when the world did finally knew that hey, this is the next big thing. Things like that. I never realized that he can write. I mean hey, anyone can but his article is just worth reading. No I’m being biased here. I’m frantically saying the truth! No wonder. His songs are in depth not like those bubblegum pop songs that you’ll get tired of easily. I mean, come to think of it, rock songs does say a lot compared to the same songs you usually hear on the radio… basta. I’m a complete convert. Rock rocks it. Not because of Yael or anyone else but because of the rush it brings to my senses.

I watched the news and saw the vergara triplets. They’re sooooo adorable. How I wish I can bear triplets in my womb. TAKE NOTE: I SAID SOMEDAY. Not now. Bwaha.

Currently listening to: taning - imago

No classes for the 4th time. Now it’s final. We barely had classes this week. Patikim ng sembreak. I know the worse will come. It will. I swear. Dawning of a new morn and the clock says it’s 3:30am. The phone rang and woke me up from the slumber I was into. In that hasty hour? Who could that possibly be? A sleep wrecker that is. Sukat akalain mong magpakilala at tanungin ako na can we be phonepals? Darn. what a moron. If he said that his name was Yael there could be a little chance for me to entertain his cursed call. Pero hindi. Oh well. Not to mention it caused commotion in the house. He wasn’t even contented with his monkey business. He even called twice. Kawawa naman. Frustrated siguro yun. Tsk. Makinig ka na lang ng tugtog. Sasaya pa buhay mo.

Closed in a box. (my mom’s thoughts)

I was watching MTV earlier this morning and found lokal artist of the month which by the way is sugarfree. They’re counting down their top 10 favorite music videos. We just ate lunch by then and my mom was watching with me while they played twisted halo’s breakable. Then all of a sudden, I told her that I found rock music very amusing and I already ditched pop. I also said that the lyrics are so profound that I learn a new word every time listen to it. Then she was totally against it. She said that if I listen to those head-bang loving bands that I’m currently into, the next step would be me, taking drugs. What the…? Why do people always associate rock music from drugs? Because of the behavior that the guys display? I mean yeah they’re intense but that doesn’t mean they’re all drug addicts. Why does she try to generalize? She means all. No exception to the rule. She lives inside a box. The stereotype cliché. It makes me frown really. :| but hey it’s not their business anyways and I thought one of sugarfree’s members quite has a resemblance to foo fighter’s vocalist don’t you think?


Echoes of music: DV - Cambio

It’s been way too long since I have caught a good flick. I’m more of a radio person now. But earlier this morning, I got to catch Ed on star world. Yey. I miss watching that. i don’t get to watch single now. It just slips out of my head… but hey, I watched Ed and that’s all that matters. Ed is a lawyer who bought their town’s bowling alley to tie the knot between him and her ideal girl who gives him such a hard time. It is such a nice series. Not to mention Ed is quite cute and funny. Their episode kanina dealt with him being a lawyer who pretty much involved trials and lawsuits. Cool. My passion for being a lawyer came up to life again. I never did want to be a lawyer. It’s just that the impeachment case has affected me that much. I find lawyers cool. Haha. weird. But seeing those must-read thick books makes me go nuts. Do I really have to read all those stuff? I missed watching csi, my fave series. Oh I don’t know why I don’t get to watch tv these days. Maybe it’s because I’m oh so busy with my day dreaming.

I also want to form a band. Ultimate goal for this summer is to learn how to play guitars. Don’t you think it’s a good start? I don’t wanna be a vocalist. Just a vocalist. *sigh* which of these two will be fulfilled? Let’s see.

Hearing his voice just makes me go *siiiiigh* yeah. Don’t you think it’s cool? Yeah it is. It never fails to give me that I’m-in-love-once-again-but-hey-I’m-dreaming mood. Wtf I’m spilling here? Yeah he makes me go nuts.

I’m crazy for you dammeeeeettttt.


My version of if you call me then you are:


If you call me Geraldine: you’re a schoolmate.
Nadine: you’re a schoolmate, a chatter, or a relative from my dad’s side
Nadine Cortez: you’re eloy.
Maggie: you’re an old friend or relative from my mom’s side
Nuhdiene: you’re team or a certified chatter.
Mike Cortez: you’re ivan.
Fonacier: you’re jem or kira
Larry: you’re kira again or ivy.
Bebeh: you’re joie or jeri
Beybs: you’re joieeeee
Ma. Geraldine Cortez: you’re someone I don’t wanna remember :|
Cortez: you’re my Filipino teacher or you’re ry.
Mahal: you’re mallot.
Magogoy: you’re jayar.
Ate nadine: you’re apple
Ate Maggie: you’re ayie
Buggie: you’re neo my cutie :)
Pachuchay: you’re kuya pip
Bachuchay: you’re my mom
Ba: you’re my mama
Yael: you’re veeroo. :)
Courti: you’re jhe.
Payless: you’re nano.
Kamatis: you’re alex.
Sumusunod sa galaw girl: you’re tetay or dap.
Heart: you’re ira.
Kyla/Nina: you’re jm.
Sis: you’re kat
Besty: you’re Carla
Buddy: you’re Miguel
Rocker princess: you’re Miguel again haha.
Hannybanny: you’re mia
Siomita: - you’re anna p my siopita :)
Idol: you’re cheddar my idol. Haha.
Hyper: you’re joeyy.
Brook: you’re my religion teacher back in 2nd grade
Gare: you’re garlet
Dear: you’re my adviser in my 5th grade
My princess: you’re yael. Ok that was a joke. Nyahaha. Dream on punk.

Anyways, yesterday night, I was chatting with veeeeero about various things that affect our teenage dirtbag life. Yes of course, living life this age is such no joke. You have to deal with problems with your folks not allowing you for the all boys school fair that you’ve been dying to go to because of your crush, the school cramming you have to deal with, the peer pressure, your love dilemma, the college entrance test going to your system and everything else in between. That’s what you call a teenage dirtbag life. Probably the worse would be everything jumbled up ready to slap you straight on the face. This time, you have nowhere else to go but surrender to the big guy up there and your trusty pillow which had enough sucking up your tears over and over. Don’t forget your tearjerker songs on queue much likely to be sung by your rock band prince. Does life get any better than that? I don’t think so.

This week has been great. I had so much to contemplate with. So much of my daydreaming, sponge cola songs, Yael, stalking, blog hopping, chatting, layout modifying, imesh downloading and eating peanut brittles. Tomorrow, I’d have to face the consequence of my bitter life. Yung exam results ko. Yes this is what you call life. *sigh*

Yael added me say m yeeeeey hahaahaha. That’s my consolation  yael.

I was hyped up for school. I’ve completed all my papers to be submitted today. And all of a sudden, my adviser * I don’t wanna mention her name* got mad at me for that little detail that wasn’t even my fault. I thought sir brioso handed her the 1x1 pic. It turned out that he hasn’t. Ending, I was the culprit. Am I?

Half day tomorrow. Exams will start the following day. I’m drained and I haven’t had much sleep as I needed. Ap is getting to my nerves chem. And geom. Too. We had QUADRUPLE CHEM today. It was the most horrifying thing ever. I was about to fall asleep. Thank god I managed to hold on to my sanity K it was that bad. I’ll enjoy chem.. why not? minus the teacher. Next agenda in prac arts: drafting. Quite excited. I hope it’ll be not that bad.

As I hear that guitar, i realize that he's gone.

The day was done and I was one of the firsts to rush my way to the gate. I bought a hoodie in my bag but for some reasons, I just wanted to walk without any protection. I felt so tired and troubled and all for me to do was walk my way to our house. As I feel the cold breeze and find droplets of water covering me, I felt suddenly mystified. I felt that I’m alone. Alone again. There’s nothing wrong with being alone really but the fact that you are alone because you had no choice is a different thing. I had my choice but I’ve made my decision. And that decision is final. So this is the life I chose to life and the price I had to pay.

*sigh* seize the day…

we had mass earlier this morning and it’s supposed to be funny. I’m supposed to write it in detail but in my dismay… oh well. it’s the same bitter life. you gotta be kidding me.

a princess? I don’t think so.
I’d be off alone today. My parents went somewhere to fix something. yeahp. you got the picture. I’d be home alone. so I decided to catch a flick. Ok I was complaining that I haven’t seen a good movie for the longest time. Just so happened that I got lucky to see Cinderella story. it was another teenybop movie with a popstar princess as the lead character. Ordinary script and fairy tale-like. Or just so I thought…

hits you right in the bull’s eye
the story was awkwardly, my life. Except the fact that hey, I still have my parents and luckily, I don’t work. I’m just the bummer pretending to be the princess. yeah. drama queen mode again. It’s supposed to be a feel good movie but it turned out to be the opposite. nega powers are just there to hit me right in the head. it’s just me. it’s my story and my life. yeah. just too impossible. I’m feeling weirdly down right now. it’s just so weird. princess? I don’t think so. the pretentious, insecure, uhhhh negative what? dummy? just make up for that blank. I’m just so upset.

wake up. it’s another yet shattering conviction. FAIRY TALES DOESN’T HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE. if it does, what the heck.

hey, did I mentioned that chad Michael murray was uhhh, what? the uhhhh, figure it out.

You expect to say things worth deafening
With cluttered tears I say out loud
I just need an answer from you
All I can hear is this twisted guitar

Blankly staring at the old chair
Where you used to sit ‘til the morn
All I ask of you is something
Just make it last all night long

Smoke is getting in my eyes
It’s past a pack you know
Lite can be here
when there’s no one left of you

I can wipe out this water
Don’t worry
These all are hasty
Like how you walked out that door

ayos. balik sa buhay. lasing ka nanaman

“I’m gonna be late… Late for reality”